Saturday, August 2, 2008

MAXED out

Can't we get a break? Money keeps going out. A few weeks ago our vehicle gave out and we had to replace the thermostat - $400 later we were up and running. Then shortly after that our air conditioner started leaking - $150 later it was fixed. Then last night we were relaxing and it kept getting hotter and hotter in our house. Keep in mind that at this time of year, where we live, it is 115 degrees outside and it only cools down to 95-100 degrees in the evening. I called the A/C repair man and he arrived at 9:30 p.m. and... $550 later it is working again. Ahhhhhhhhhh!!!! It seems like we are not going to get back on track.

Of course this increases my anxiety about the additional expenses that we are incurring with our adoption. I know deep down in my heart that this is the direction that we are being called. I am stepping out in faith but, am being turned down. I recently had a visit with our church to see if we could, in some way, collaberate to raise additional funds for our upcoming adoption. I am sad to say that I was turned down because they have other priorities. This was very devasting. What am I being told? Are we going down the wrong road?

Any supporting words that anyone can provide would be greatly appreciated. I am on the verge of crying at every turn.

9 comments:

A. Ray. said...

Oh my! Not fun to be in Arizona without a/c!!! I was feeling anxious about money a few weeks ago. I had to have $830 to submit to USCIS and it was a stretch for us at that particular time. I remember driving home thinking we would just have to wait another week or two until we got the $ together (the thought upset me). WELL...when I got home and checked the mail I opened a letter from a complete stranger with...$800 inside!!!!! She didn't know us but wanted to contribute to our adoption. Praise God! I learned that day that God will help take care of things if I will just quit trying to take control of it and give it up to him. SO...hang in there...He will take care of you too!!!

Salzwedel Family said...

You sound like me when we started last fall. Somehow it has all worked out so far. Don't listen to the doubt Satan is putting in your head.

I'm sorry your church is unwilling to help. I know from personal experience what a huge disappointment that is.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6

Amy said...

I know just what you mean!! Seems like I am bleeding $$ this summer. A few weeks ago I felt like everything around me was breaking: my brand new HD TV (that I won through work - so can't return) is on the fritz, my computer wouldn't let me get past the windows sign on screen, the ceiling fan in my bedroom works but NOT the light attached to it and it's NOT burned out, and my germin wasn't working in the car. I travel for work - so this is a MUST. When it rains it pours, I guess! But, this too shall pass!

Lori said...

I'm so sorry for the stresses and strains of finances...I know just how you are feeling (minus the adoption expenses)...but I do know how hard it can be to constantly be taking one step forward and two steps back - especially with vehicles (AARGH!).

I encourage you to continue on in prayer and trust that the Lord will lead you in the direction He desires. Perhaps you could find other creative ways to raise funds? A garage sale, maybe? My friend over at http://www.steppingoutoftheboat.blogspot.com/
is organizing a softball tournament (http://steppingoutoftheboat.blogspot.com/2008/07/first-annual-encompass-softball.html).

Just an idea...

Take care! :-)

xoxo said...

Hang in there g.f. Maybe your future daughter isn't available yet. It may take a little time, but in the end, life unfolds as it should. She will come to you. Of course, I am the queen of impatient (as you well know)... but I am always here when you need to vent. God knows I vent enough to you!! Hang in there. It will happen. Life has a way of working itself out in the end - just get through this middle part, and you'll be fine.

xoxo

Wife to the Rockstar said...

I am so sorry. I really think that because you are choosing to step out in faith and adopt again the enemy is going to amp things up. We have totally experienced this every time we have adopted. Keep the faith!!!!!!

Sarah Snyder said...

I wish I had the means to make everything better. I can pray for your situation though. I remember growing up... even though finances were tough it was always amazing to watch and see how God would provide, and in such amazing ways too!

Bella's momma said...

Oh girl I wish I had the words you need to help you feel better. The only thing that came to mind as I was reading your post 'I remember those times'.

When we were in the midst of Bella's adoption we went through the two hurricanes that hit the FL coast in 2004. When the second hit, the roof at Vito's store caved in it destroyed everything. Insurance helped with some but not nearly all ~

There were many nights that I worried about the adoption and the expense of it all. I did not know if we could or should continue on.

I can tell you NOW 4 years later, I am forever grateful that we pressed on during the difficult times.

Have faith in the direction you are moving~ it is worth it. It is worth it all!!!

sara said...

I can relate. It seems our agency has us writing checks about every other month. And not small ones. And now - my car battery keeps dying. i am SURE that I need a new one :(

But you know that God will provide, He always does. Sometimes His provision don't look like we *think* they should..but He is always there!! Don't let Satan take any strongholds in your life - keep the faith and just try to think of ways to "win"!!!

Keep The Faith!!